my fate resides in the hands of time...
today I will be hospitalized...
I am completely packed...
I am awake far too early...
I got rid of my precious knives...
no more loss of blood...
my body's already in lacking...
I think it may finally be the end...
I can feel mixed emotions...
but I have a chance at sanity...
from now until christmas...
they will watch me like hawks...
privacy slips out the window...
no more tiny strand of a life...
happiness isn't in my vocabulary...
my stupidity brings me down...
unstopping, just further and further...
I doubt I'll ever find peace...
I am only sure of one ugly thought...
there is no beautiful good-bye...


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